There were times you knew you did wrong and you tried your very best to change it for a better. However, things do not practically packed as you wish. Yeah, only if your wish, wisdom and courage is something 3 in 1 product so that you might turns into the other side of 180 degrees' result.
The more you wanna be someone better, the more difficulties and barriers you will face.
I'm not talking bout some kind of rubbish but my valuable experiences. Bad experiences, still... valuable. And yes, I am a loser who is still striving for a better.
And from the bottom of my heart, I hope you have the strength to fight. It hurts awhile, just be strong. I will always be here near you, supporting to the fullest.
All the best, dear.